Layer Upon Layer

Since Hannah, Ryan and Abby died, my resources for dealing with life's bumps keep getting significantly lower. I feel like layer upon layer of struggles have built up over the last few years, and now any time something is even slightly out of alignment in my world, I have a hard time dealing with it.

The most recent thing is a change in our health insurance. None of our doctors accept this new insurance. Not my hematologist, not my daughter's ENT, Audiologist or Physical Therapist, not my children’s pediatrician, my primary care doctor or my foot doctor. Not even our dentist!

And while I know we'll work something out, the very thought of having to deal with all this sends me into a tailspin. 5 years ago, I would have sat down and tackled this problem head on. Now I don't even know where to begin-it completely overwhelms me to even think about it.

And this makes me feel incompetent. And that's an awful feeling.