Getting Away

R and I are back from our vacation. I must admit that going into it, I was a bit nervous that we wouldn't know what to talk about now~for so long, our lives were consumed with grief, trying to conceive, the high risk pregnancies and then life as new parents. It's not that we don't talk at home, because we do, but it's different when you don't have every day life distractions and kids to focus on.

Thankfully, that wasn't the case. If anything, the opposite happened. R and I reconnected in a way we haven't since prior to Hannah, Ryan and Abby's births. We went into the trip as parents taking a much needed vacation from their lives and we came home as husband and wife, excited to see our kids. It was refreshing, relaxing and rekindling.

For both of us, this trip was symbolic of a new beginning, the start of a new chapter in our lives. We both still honor and remember Hannah, Ryan and Abby (each in our own special way), but the dark, painful days of grieving are behind us now. It's very liberating not having to focus our time, energy and money trying to build a family. It frees us up to focus on our family as well as our future and our every day life.

We are now home from a spectacular get-away. It's unlikely we'll take another 7 day trip without the kids any time soon, but we both have recognized the importance of getting away together and we've committed to prioritizing weekend trips every now and then.

It's so nice to be able to finally do this.